People always said I never like the country where I was born. In fact, I did change my citizenship years back. When I reflected back on my hatred and dislike, I wonder why did I feel like that. If anything, it's more to do with my family and how we got treated back in Indonesia. As a family, we never really had harmonious relationship with one another. The pressure from the outside and the internal family to be something that I am not, strained myself to the edge. From then on, I am always in constant search to find a new identity. Somewhere I could feel a sense of belonging and freedom. Somewhere I could escape from all these issues. Hence, I pursued to study overseas and never look back. In that time as well, I never really feel like I belong to Australia, I felt foreign. It was hard to get along. It took me years of settling down before I finally realised how great is this place. Now, I call this place a home and it does feel like one.
On another story, my best friend often said I'm a bit of an emo. I understand the fashion part of the emo, but I don't think I'm one. Although sometimes I maybe a little emo-ish. What I never realised, however, is the emotional part. I just found out about it today. Quoted from wikipedia:
"In recent years emo has been associated with a stereotype that includes being emotional, sensitive, shy, introverted, or angst-ridden. It has also been associated with depression, self-injury, and suicide." The first sentence described me perfectly! The second part.. well... definitely no.. If anything, my injury comes from my clumsiness.
And finally.. I just got my latest obsession delivered. It looks pretty in the picture, but it looks prettier in real life. Introducing, my most expensive shoes ever... by Lanvin.... (If girls have Manolo Blahnik, guys certainly have Lanvin).
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