失恋する

I'm typing this with my hands cold and shaking. I feel broken hearted and disappointed towards him and myself mainly. He finally revealed that he is dating someone else and like that person very much. I blamed myself for being stupid and sacrifice a lot of things for him when he seems to take me for granted. There's nothing much I could say in this post except I do feel very very sad. I want to cry, but no tears are coming out. I want to share this feeling with my friends and god brother, but I know they would ridicule my actions. Only here, I could release my feelings and hopes. At times like tonight, I actually want to return to my ex so much. But I don't know if it even worth it....

Edit: After thinking about it.. I actually feel quite angry and upset. I feel used... Those times I spent was for nothing and he used me for his entertainment and source of information. I do believe those informations were used for woo-ing the other guy. Such a bastard.. There is a small part of me who wishes that he rots in hell. BUT a larger part of me wishes that he find happiness, even if I become the scape goat. I will still open my arms to him tho.. as a friend that is... I couldn't see myself being used again as a spare tyre.